I Dreamt I Was In Hell Last Night…

… and it was the office of an MLM company in the throes of neverending sales/recruitment pitches, complete with squat little tables and chairs and manic sales representatives driven mad by greed.

Then I dreamt I was taken to heaven (presumably to show that it is indeed a better place), but I can’t remember for the life of me, what it looked like. Except that it was bright all around… so much light and blue skies.

I also dreamt of someone I had a crush on last year, and even though I had decided to close that chapter and not look back, in my dream, I felt how I felt when I first met her (stronger, if it’s even possible).

In the dream, I had asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes. The joy that had filled me was like nothing I had ever felt when I was awake, and it stayed with me for the rest of the day. It wasn’t like how sometimes, you get together with someone just for its own sake. In the dream, it felt like it was the answer to everything I wanted, and more.

I guess the mind might sometimes decide to let go, but the heart never forgets.

It was when an unidentified guy persuaded her to go back on her decision that I gave her a slap. It was that which triggered the heaven and hell sequence.

Her birthday is in about two weeks, and I don’t know how I can say ‘Hi’ without sounding like a loser/stalker after all this time.